Well I tell ya what. I been texting on phone for 2 hours, and now 3 hours on this computer, I cant see the fuckin keys or the writing lol.. I''m well, but tired as shit,, been a long long day.. got a new job the other day, and I love it.. The opportunities that have come my way from this, I'm still trying to head my head around it all. A magazine called users news has found some stuff i got published in a lil mag we have down here.. They coming down to interview me to see if i would be suitable as a writer for the mag.. 200 bucks per printed word, and if they like my stuff enuff, they gonna give me my own page, where i make up a quirky name for it like FEE'S USELESS FACTS, AND SERIOUS SHIT.I will have things like where the word F# * K originated, to the last 6 hours of a mans death. But I tell yu one thing for sure.. People might start to open their eyes when they read what i write.. especially addicts..I have loiads of useful information with drugs.. arm yrself with knowledge, and you'lle stay on top I think.. Anyway,, loving the new jobm, cant wait for more to come.. will keep ya posted.. bye, fiona

For 24 years I have brought up my boy, a single mom, and drugs were my toys, but 5 years ago, i gave it awy, now my son is going same way,

If ya get them to 20, ya think ya done ok, but its after this age they start to sway, clubbing, drinking, peer pressure in play, coz everyones taking mdma

30 addicts we know are now sadly dead,,, from not listening to the voice in their head, drinking, pilling, and pinging around, till one day yr facing the ground

I sit on the couch and can see with dread, the police turning up, to tell me yr dead, I told yu it would make yu ill, now yr gone, all for a pill

"its all cool mum", I can hear yu say, but how can I live, after that fateful day,

that the coppers come and say to me

YR SON JUST DIED FROM ECXTASY

FEE/ FLO

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I decided to do a survey around our local vicinity, and as I work for an exchange, got the go ahead and paperwork to do it.. it was just a matter of how much foot work I was prepared to put into it and if people wanted to tell me what i wanted to know and some of them not knowing me.. well, with this challenge at hand i knew the results before i even did it.. I wanted to find out how many people were addicted to drugs, but not classified as drug addicts..I live in a block of units with 10 up this side, 10 down the other, then there is a huge block of units with about 200 old people in them.There are about 50 villa units like I live in{luxury for housing}, and out of those 50, I went around and spoke to people, plus hobart being a small place, ya get to know alot about everyone,, unfortunate but true.so in these 50 units, there are 8 people on the methadone program. 4 seperate houses where both partners are on it.. 10 methamphetamine users, around 35 dope smokers, couple didnt want to say, but ya see their plant out on their balcony lol,10 drinkers, and 40 out of the 50 had a prescribed medication. i gave them a list of four to tick from.Not to mention, the street drugs as well,{oxycontin} ect;, I explained what i was doing with everyone and found most people helpful. I took no names.. just asked em to fill small bit of paper with no name and put in box with lots of others already in there, so they all knew what they took no-one would know. I put

1}benzodiazapines,and named them to tick

2} anti depressants

3)pain killers}

4}alcohol

5}dope. I got them to tick which ones they on, and fold it up and put in the anon box over 1 week. let me tell yu alot of people helped me participatge in this around where i live, and the frightning thing is i think its like this everywhere especially unemployed or pensioners. give em pills and piss em offout the surgery.so all up, there was 250 people in all these units, and 200 took part..the old peoples flat blew my mind.. out of 150 elderly people, 130 were on some sort of benzoe, antidepressant, sleeping pills, xanax,shutup pills. out of the 50 of the villa units i wrote how many there already above,so if just the flats where i live are 80percent drug filled, and we have big blocks of units for elderly people where they have around 200 units in each.. i would say most of them were medicated by doctor, as well as the alcoholics and addicts.. there is only 500.000 people here, but we have 5000 on methadone, 50.000 ice users, there is an epidemic in aussie at the moment.The fact is, all over the western world, if yu were to look in every second medicine cabinet, yu would find at least 1 prescribed medication if not at least 3,{panamax ect count},plus all those who drink, smoke, smoke dope, . The abuse of doctor prescribed drugs which they just keep prescribing, are doin far more damage to people than what the streets drugs are.. SHAME ON YU DOCTORS. too easy just to prescribe a sleepin pill coz her husband has died instead of touching, loving, and talking.. Its too fucking a simple answer for to many of ya. there's something else for ya all to think about..It is actually alot worse than i have written, will eplain it more in another blog on another day.. am getting tired from looking into all this, like I have been. if yr drug free, thank the lord.. if yr an addict, god bless yu. chemical addiction is the worst problem in the world, and millions are inflicted with the dis/ease of chemical addiction. get off it, yu say..yu wanna go insane for up to 3 months, sometimes years..to be at the point where yu feel like yr going to die, instinct takes over, which is why addiction is prone to relapse.. ya really think yu gonna die when in the throes of withdrawal.. if yr not an addict, yu can never understand fully plz know that. its a pain yu cant see, but most would shoot themselves in the head if a gun was handy..Its a demon that cant be fathomed.. it rips and owns the soul;.. its the biggest fight you will ever have in yr life, getting clean from any chemical addiction..but its the toughest road i know of.. if yu can do this, yu can acheive anything. yr stronger than yu think.. god wont let yu tolerate any more than yu cannot bear. the body goes unconcious before that point. people who do ge thru it, turn out to be such strong people if they can stay clean.is the worst disease in life for relapsing. . alot of praying cant hurt.bye for now guys and gals, fiona